Okay, this is difficult, this is really, really difficult, I’m talking coronavirus by the way. I’ve never experienced anxiety like this before, I got home on Tuesday and burst into tears, since then I’ve been really teary, today I started shaking and my palms got really sweaty, I decided to go and plank for 3 minutes that really, really helped. I’m just taking it one day at a time, one day after the other. I’m imagining I’m on mile 10 of the marathon and the finish line is nowhere in sight, I’ve still got miles to go, I just need to pace to myself.

How I’m Feeling?

I’m sure there’s loads of people who’re really struggling like me, how do I stop my brain from imploding with negative thoughts? Theres so much uncertainy in society, nothing makes sense in the world anymore, the shops are shutting, we have to stay at home and the government keeps banning everything. What’s going on? When will it stop? I just want to wake up one morning and it will be over.

How Do I Cope?

Exercise, it’s the only way I’m going to get through this. When I started shaking yesterday and went and planked for 3 minutes, god I felt better. I’ll run for miles, I’ve made the decision to run for feeling and my mental health for the next couple of months rather than worry about time and pace, I’m just not in the right mindset. I’m also going to be writing on here about my thoughts a lot more.

3 Areas I’m Focusing On

I’m trying to focus on three particular areas, work, running and relaxation. Work is my regular work which I do usually but this time it will be from home, running helps clear my mind, helps me relax and forget about everything and control my anxiety whilst relaxation, I’ve not quite figured this one out just yet, I’m not the best at switching my brain off, so I might start reading a lot more and playing video games, really struggling watching TV at the mo, it just seems to trigger my anxiety.